HeY 'sUp PeepZ! Well, i wasn't going to blog in here anymore since i really got tired of bloggin n ' all...but then i was inspired again by couple of people, inclucing Ally (Hi Ally!) Well yea, she ;eft me a message that made me think, she said she liked my last blog n' i guess cuz somehow it relates her. i read my last blog n' i was surprise n' didn't really know how or when did all those thoughts came in my mind..... but i guess since somehow once or twice there's someone out there that can relate to it and i thought " wow... im not alone.."  SO I figure to start bloggin again... and thanks for all the peeps that still add me in n stuff.. i got ur mails so now i won't let u guys down....

First n FOremost just wanna say it was my Burday YesTerday! lolz. wellnow its time for me to give back all the happy memories and lucky wishes to my friends who will be celebrating their burdayz too soon! Happy happy Burdayz to Cheryl and DITAS! Dee ur the best and without u i think my party won't be the same! ur Awesome!!! Much Loves to U!  And im thanking all my friends who was there beside me celebrating my day, even to some that just showed up just to say happy BUrday, and to those who may not be n my sicde as i celebrate but was on my thoughts the whole time and leaving messages i myspace or friendster! Love you alll! N' im really glad i have such friends like u guys, and i m really happy that im surrounded with great people!

Well m first Blog of the year......

Its so sad how thigns pass by and time changes... because that means that everyone changes... I use to be scared of changes.. i always thought changes are scary.. realy scary... but then i came to realize that there's nothing really i can do to change it... Do u remember your first Best friend when u were young..ever wonder how could u guys ever be apart from one another.... how one time you were calling him/her your BEst Friend eVer... then all of a sudden time change... and u guys arn't talking anyymore... sometimes there would be a day where im hanging out with my friends and m so happy... we we're kickin'...laughing...snorting... then it comes to ur mind its getting late.. and soon evryone's going to be goin home... and that fun day will be gone... luckily n cross finger i havent really lost anyone of my friend permently, like let say dying from sickness or dying... i was thinking of those that had friends that passed away from an accident without even telling them how grat friends he/she was. THat's why ithnk u shuold almost amke ur day a different and think outside the box... one of the things i learned in high school... that to be happy n relax you always have to think outside the box.... ever gave someone a hug but actually really meant that hug... wat is a hug?.. to me its a way of my physical body that actually letting the other person to know that im holding him/her around because im glad i had a friend like him and i don't want to loose him/her.. but eventually u have to loosen ur hug n that just say "its ok.. i may never be there o ur side as u go now, but you will always be here in my heart n treasure our friendship together...."

Ever love a person but you wasn't sure if they feel the same... aren't you just scared of rejection because u care so much for the other person....  HOw abou one time when you thought you found the one.. theone that's perfect for you.. the one that you thought could understand you in any circumstances... the one that you thought cared for you... then suddenly found that it was all a lie. Why some people are wiling to ruins someones feelings just so they can have fun and think they are better than the other because they had broken their heart....

well this is my frist blog for the year... somehow i know that it can be raeally confusing and seems like it doesnt make any sence.. but if you only are going through wat im going through then you would know what im talking about.... this may not interest you but i know at least one in the whoel world knows wat im tlaking about......

Well haven't really been here for a very long time...... I miss everyone here heheee..... Have you ever felt like you really want something but its just imposible for you to have it? Have you ever thought of something or someone that you thought belongs to you but then you ended up feeling down and depress......  Have you ever met someone that you thought you have conected so much and that you have thought it'll be you to that'll be together...all of your life......... maybe its you.. that i've been waiting for, all of my life.............. Have you ever been in your room alone.....just thinking of what would have happened to you if you two haven't met each other.... Ever open that box or something that keeps all your memories together and just read all your old sweet letter and looked at all your happy moments caught in a picture together......... ever wanted to get it back?.......

Happy Birthday........ <3

Mayn, i miss writing in this blog. Haven't been here for the longest time. Well honestly I have been really busy for the fast few weeks. Im always preoccupied with things. LIke my Aunts and cousin from Japan came so I have to be theit tour guy for about 1 1/2 weeks. Then i've been cleaning my house to make it look better heheee..... and all other stuff. I haven't even on the phone calling the people i use to call regularly U know who who are. Well yea first just wanna say sorrie for that first. Secondly i wanna give my shout outz to Jusa and Leslie, well i think i know theres more but ill give it later, just wanna say happy happy advance b-day! i knowi cant do those fancy things that u guys do with ur fonts lol (jusa) but yea we gotta have a PARTY!!! Also to Vunniesssa for always being kewlio friend. WELCOME BACK Benji!!! Weell we're all reunited again lol.

Well i haven't been here for the longest time because every time i would blog i would always get disconnected right before i finish and all the hings i typed gets messed up and i get really pissed. So hopefuly it woont happen this time.

I wanna make my xanga blog something useful. Through the times i spent here in xanga people well some are my friends from out of church that would read it would e-mail me and stuff saying "i liked what you put on your blog,kinda inspired me." wel to me it was a great pleasure to read something like that, so i thought to myself and got to a conclusion that i should make it useful.SInce many and diferent person reads this, i should use it more to inspire and help out the others. So imma start today, for a new day !!!

Well some of us gets in a relationship pretty early and som of us takes it to the niples too much. So how do we know its going to last long?     Im writing this for my 2 friends who've always experience this kinda of stuff.     Well getting in a relationship to fast is really not a gud thing. Not only that it could get you in a lot of troubles but sometimes it could even break many things to you. Your trust to each other.... and what so hard and i figure why young guy/girls breaks up easily is because whenever they find or have any misunderstanding they dont even care of anything to fix or maybe talk about the problems first. they just tend to argue about it then break up, thinking that maybe they're just not for one another or thy're just ans @ssehole. Well what's great growing up is you tends to learnd things as you make mistake while your growing up. When i was young i thought girlfriend and stuff is just a thing. like everybody do it, like so you can go to the mall with someone or you can call someone telling them you lvoe them. But thten as i grow up i realized there's more to it. Far more to it. You looked for someone because your looking for love. You ant to share and expres your feelings more to someone. You look for a realationships because you want to get the same love that you feel that someone would also gives you. BUt nowadays what tends to happens is that people (not mentioning any names ) tends to just do it because of peer preasure or  because everyone is doing it. When you look for a relationship you should be going "oh she's hot she got the front and the back" and the personality or any other stuff doenst even matter. Sometimes it happens with the influence of your friend or best freind "oh i think you guys would look really cute" then next thing you know they're together. I soon learned that looking for a long lasting relationships also takes time. Before you get hooked up you gotta think what did i like about her, or what does she have that i know i wouldn't get tired of or i wouldnt be embarrass about. ther'es really many things out there that you gotta think about and this is just some of it that we always got to think. TALKING or communications woith each other is always important. well thats it for this one.

and for you this is my advice, i think not that she doesnt like you or anything becuase you guys doesnt communicate anymore as you use to, its just that maybe she jsut really know her priority, an what shes doing is she puts her friends first before her relationship. which i think is right specially for your age right now. you guys are still young, there's so many thigns for you guys out there i dont kow why are you guys in a hurry. well why'd did i say that she's mayking the right decision, well for me i think true friends will always be there for you, and not whoever you're going out with right now. if problems occur you guys could break up but ur friends would still be around you. when you're sick you friends are always tehre for you, maybe even before her. but if you think about it your true friends will always be there for all the time as your family woud be there for you but for a relationsips, whenthings gets rough and you guys have misunderstanding there's a chance that you guys could break up and hat all it for a relationships. SOme of the things i've seen wrong from the past is that When a guy really fall in love with a girl or a girl falls inlove with a guy they forget about their friends whenever their friends would give them advice they feel like their jsut jeaslous because they dont spend much time with each other or they're making the other onelook bad. what the thing is that sometimes you can't see things that your other friends could see from a person. Thats why they call it "Love is BLind" Yes i know sometimes is so hard to imagine that they're saying all tis stuff but u have t othink that you're friends just cares about you and they just dont want you to get hurt. Well from what im saying earlier, a girl fell in love with a guy or vice versa and the friends fought because they thinks theire just making thier relationships fall so the friends backs out and break up their friends ships while the other enjoys being in their relationships. After a week or o them 2 also broke up cuz kow he/she sees what their friend was trying to tell them. Well now, where do you go, now that you're friends aren't there for you anymore. If you're lucky enough you're frineds could accept you back like how in your family they would alwys accept you. what really im trying to say is that, it is you who should always think about it and make a priority.

well im done for now and thre will be more next time.

"evr wonder how life wuld have been like if we didnt meet each other.if we weren't frends at all.if we didnt bother to say those little words dat made us who we r tday?ever wonder bout da choices we culd have made if we weren't der 4 each other.all of these things we culd wonder if we didnt meet... yet,we don't have to wonder them.we can say dat we never lost wat we can have..and we have wat we cant lose."

"i know dat everythin happens for a reason.but y is dat reason so hard for me to understnd.isnt life difficult as it already is?and here u are coming to my life and i cant accept you with open arms.because during our times of dodgin and searchin for each other, i found somebody else.as hard as it may seem... i did.and i love her with all my heart."

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well i got this from my friend of mine Alvin, i was gonna blog but i got tiredd so i just copy pate, well ill blog tomz. peace out, good nighters